It Was Suppose To Be A Good Day

Well I had been mentally prepared to deliver a good news blog entry this weekend but unfortunately I feel much worse than this emoji looks. I am sitting down in the public library, out of the rain, listening to the Dodgers playoff game, blogging... really just trying to keep it together.

Before we get caught up lets rewind it to Thursday after I finished up at the airport with one of my regulars. Around noon on Thursday I was paid by my client $180 for my services. After waking up with just $4.00 to my name I had planned my Thursday afternoon route to accommodate my errands, 3 jobs interviews and a trip to gym. First stop was getting gas after spending $30 for gas I was down to just $154.00. My next stop was to apply for a job at a local pizza shop which I knew was hiring because I found their ad posted on the Indeed App while I was at the gym the night before. I really get tired of the mainstream job hiring formula and really don't have the patience to jump thru hoops for all these companies paying peanuts and treating you like slaves. So I  was really hopeful this was the place for me simply because of the work environment and knowing it was a self owned business.

I went in to fill out an application and speak with manager for an interview just like the ad on Indeed said to do but the green haired chop top cashier wasn't having it. This dude literally turned me away and told me I needed to bring a resume for the owner to review. We were just 20 feet away from the owner and dude was literally not trying to fill the position that was needed to be filled. I was pissed because I had the feeling he was hating on me or my Punisher t-shirt (lol) and the ad said nothing about bringing a resume.... or I would have. So I headed back to my truck thinking about the gas I wasted, when I got the urge to got back in the pizza shop. I grabbed one of my business flyers for my mobile detail service and proceeded back into the pizza shop.

This time the green haired oversized Dennis the Menace look alike was nowhere to be found instead the owner was there taking inventory. I had no idea he was the owner  but I told him the cashier said I need a resume and handed him my flyer. I said can you please give this to the manager and tell him "that guy" needs a part time job. He took one look at the flyer and pointed toward the table for an interview as he gave the cashier a hard time for not giving me a chance. The owner this pizza shop is ironically middle eastern decent but unlike my last job interviewer, this man was very polite, respectful and shook my hand with all five fingers like a real man should. He spoke perfect English and within minutes we had agreed for me to start the next evening by auditioning for an unpaid 2 hour shift. Basically I was hired as long as my 2 hour try out went well.

Well I actually had to plan on stopping by a factory for an interview as well as apply at America's Tires but since things eventually worked out at the pizza shop I felt content enough to skip the factory. So I headed to my storage facility to pay my monthly dues. Its $120 for 10'x20' shipping container. It has my all my belongings and I basically use it as a giant closet, visiting every few days to swap out clothes, shoes etc. Now I am down to $34 after paying for my storage unit and after making sure I have work clothes I head for America's Tires. 

I still needed to America's Tires pull a nail from my tire and plug my tire. Since they were hiring and the tire plug is FREE, I still had to hit them up and see whats what. I got there a immediately decided not to apply, it wasn't the fact that I had the pizza shop on the burner but it was the idea of slaving for the owner of a company that was never going to see my sweat. It was the idea of working with a bunch of knuckle heads that's just got out of jail. I just didn't want to be a tire robot doing the same thing, all day, everyday. So I asked the tire guy to pull my nail and plug my tire but he informed that the tread on the tire was too worn out and I need a new front pair, plus an alignment. WTF!? That is $300 or more, that I don't have.😩 All I could do tell the tire guy maybe next week as I walked toward the truck praying with my somber head down.

From there I am headed to gym and I got a call on my business phone for 3 washes and interior detail. One of my clients referred me to someone new and I was so happy after we confirmed for Saturday ( today ) morning. I'm literally surviving on a day to day basis and between the pizza shop on my new client I was set to have a great, rejuvenating weekend. Before I could finish my workout, The pizza shop called and texted me asking me if I wanted to audition that night. of course I said yes and I turned my 2 hour audition into 3 and 1/2 hours. I even went back last night after doing all my laundry and towels for detailing but last night halfway into my 4 hour shift it started raining and when they told me it was raining outside, My heart stopped. I knew instantly... that my work scheduled for today would be cancelled and I would be to poor to eat this weekend. I have been surviving of protein shakes and protein bars for the past few months as it is but these past few weeks its been worse.. and worse.

You know they say when it rains, it pours... and it sure poured last night. over the past few months I have been frequently sleeping in the back of my truck. I have a camper shell, pillows, blankets and a futon in the back. last night it rained so hard I learned my camper shell is no longer weather proof. The window and other seals are bad and before I knew it, All my blankets, pillows and futon was soaked with cold rain water. I literally had to weather the storm, shivering all night trying to sleep.

I woke up today and went to the laundry mat without any quarters so i had to slide my debit card for the transaction. I had to dry all my stuff... I had no choice, then got some scotch tape to try to seal the seals temporarily. Then I tried to use my debit card for food and realized I couldn't. The Laundry mat doubled charged my debit card.

Today was suppose to be a good day. This blog entry was suppose to be happy, upbeat and full og good news. Instead, the rain washed away my good day and I'm basically living a reality much similar to all the hurricane victims around the globe. It's hard! I know my life could be much worse but I feel like the longer it takes to get better, the more likely it will become worse. I'm trying to stay strong, trying not to lose hope but no matter how strong I am or how hard I try... there is really nothing I can do about my bad luck.... or "God's Will". 

I will do what I can. I will survive what I can..... but the reality is, if i can't? I won't! So pray for me fam! I need it!