Welcome To My Diary

Hello Everybody,... Welcome to Presley's Diary.  I am Presley. You can call me Presley, Nothing more... Nothing less. Yes that is a gym selfie but it technically is my most recent selfie plus it shows I'm alive and well (in case you care lol), so there you have it.

It's been a long time since I tried to write. I took a long break from mainstream society and my social media accounts. I stopped listening to FM Radio and I have really done as much I can to ensure that my soul, my life and my perspectives are not influenced by anyone or anything other than destiny.

For as long as I can remember... I have been fascinated by words, lyrics and psalms. I know my passion to write was in a large part was due to my obsession with music but I cant help but wonder if this was my Divine path and if maybe,.. subconsciously I was doing it for my mental health. I think every human being has mental health issues to some degree. Some ignore it, some address it and writing has become one of my main coping mechanisms.

With that said, I need to write and I'm hoping this time around I find the clarity I need to solve this Rubik's cube called my life. It's not just about me.. we all know there are at least three children that depend on my evolution... but sometimes I get this erry feeling that the rest of you need me too. Like as if I was born for a purpose. So while I seek that purpose to discover who I really am, this blog will remind us all how I got there.

I guess I'm not ashamed to admit it at 36 years old... God knows its not my fault. Mental health issues are suppose to exist in a child's mind after going through what I went through in my youth. Life's hard! I survived some ugly shit storms and I even thou I came real real close to making dreams come true.... I'm back in a place where I need to write for my mental health. So yesterday I spent my last dollar on my new domain so I could start blogging.

Don't get it twisted! I don't wake up mad at the world, humans or GOD. I don't think of ways to inflict pain or commit crime. I don't let my mood affect the world but this world does affect my moods. My struggle is dealing with people trying to hurt me or take out their pain on me. My struggle is my childhood memories and not having a family because of them. Sometimes I just don't know how to deal with ill mannered people, bad perspectives, crooked companies, broken systems, the liars and the tweakers. My pain comes from realizing that no matter what I do or how I say things, just like a majority of civilization... my children are going to learn the hard way. Not to mention I am barley coping with that fact that I want to hear GOD'S voice sooooooooooo bad, but for some fucked up reason, I can't.

The truth is no one can really tell that I'm broken, depressed or homeless. It's not that I'm hiding it but I just don't project negatively. I'm always loving, courteous and helpful. I am the hopeful optimistic trying to the make the most out of life. I'm not calling any hot lines or screaming for attention on Facebook. I'm not asking for anyone to read this or do me any favors. This Diary is for my kids, My kid's kids, My Bonnie and anyone who might benefit from the wisdom or strength of my stories. More importantly I'm doing this for myself, Because its what I do... To keep my pain from affecting the rest of the world.

Although you might see this as the beginning of a new era/ story/ book, I see it through binoculars of hope, as the final chapter " my happy ending". I think every human being should have a blog or time capsule of some sort. I think we all deserve to be remembered and this diary is to make sure I remember  who I am when my A.I. is rebooted lol just kidding. So once again welcome to Presley's Diary. Thanks for taking the time to get to know the real me.